Inspirational stories come from the writers heart and soul. God put His "heart" in you. He didn't just create you. He invested Himself in you. You are the inspirational story that emerged from the heart and soul of the Father. Who you are is a person worth knowing well.

Jill Palmer (I think) :)

Monday, October 6, 2008

Dreams!


Lately I have been really stuggling with my dreams.... will they come true? are they real dreams? how and what can i do to see my dreams come true?
Ever since I was a little girl my dream was to become a mommy and a wife. I have always wanted to have little ones to call my own. I have wanted a husband to share in my future and to build a family with. I can remember lining my baby dolls and stuffed animals up and acting like they where my class, one christmas I even asked for all teacher stuff' I would play school and than go home to my husband and kids. I can remember playing doctor with my cousins acting like we where having babies and than once we went around and all had our babies we would start playing mommys.
As I have gotten older my dream to be a mommy and wife has grown bigger and bigger. Many people say oh man you are so young you have your whole life a head of you. And you know what I want to say to that "well when you have been playing mommy and wife since you were five it feels like forever you have been dreaming of it for a million years." :) And you know who the people are who are telling me this.... they are mommies and wives they act like oh it is no big deal it will happen someday but for me it is a hard dream to wait for and say oh someday.
I was raised in a very loving and open home my family is not perfect by any means but I am blessed to call them family. I watched how my parents raised me and knew that someday I wanted to be able to raise a child like my parents have. I want to hug on them and kiss them and call them my own. I want to know that my dream to be a mommy and a wife is not just a dream that I wake up from every morning but a reality. I want to wake up next to my husband or wake up four times a night with little ones of my own. (okay after I have my own no one is allowed to hold this over my head lol) I want to know that my dream is a reality!

I know and believe that God has put this passion inside me for a reason and a purpose. I know and believe that this will come true. God is totally teaching me to be patient lol! Which I can tell you now at times I am not.

When I think of my dreams my dads favorite verse come to mind.....
For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to
harm you. Plans to give you a HOPE and a FUTURE.
Jeremiah 29:11

I know that God has given me this burning passion, this dream so that He can see it come to reality. I just have to learn to wait on the Lord and know that His timing might not be my own! (And man is this hard) However I also know that this is a dream that He has given me for this stage of my life. I now need to begin to seek His face daily and pray for this dream so that His hand will move!

1 comment:

Kim said...

Hmm, you need to read "Dream Releasers". I'll get you a copy. Hold on to those dreams, but let go of fears that they won't happen. His time.