Daddy's Girl!

I am the only girl of three kids, I have an older brother and a younger brother. So as you can guess I had a very close relationship with my dad. However every Christmas I would ask for a baby sister and they would always tell me that mommy can not have anymore babies. Well after a couple years I got smart and told them they could adopt a little girl and I could than have a baby sister. Well they did not fall for that my dad use to tell me that if we adopted a little girl I would not be daddy's only girl! And since I already told my mom that when she died I was going to marry daddy I could not have another girl around to try and take my place. :)
As I said earlier I had a very close relationship with my daddy. I remember having daddy daughter dates ever since I was a little girl where our hands would be interlock and our minds set on what an exciting and fun night was ahead of us. Even when I got older we would go on our special dates this will always be one of the many memories I remember of my dad.
When my dad past away suddenly my world was torn apart. I had no clue who I was or what I stood for. What my purpose was in life and what my future had in tale. I realized that I saw who I was in my dad not in my savior. Although I was daddy's little girl I was more consumed with what he thought about me than what Jesus Christ thought about me. Although at times I get mad and frustrated because I do not understand the reason for my dads death and probably never will I do know that I have begun to be my heavenly fathers little girl. This is a process for sure and it has taken me over 4 years to get to this point. I am finally content with who I am in Christ some days are better than others but every day is a new one.
Although I will always be my daddy's little girl I am beginning to find and fall in love with my heavenly daddy. And I am allowing myself to be his little girl!