Tomorrow starts the two week count down and the emotions are all hitting me. One moment I am so excited and the next minute I am in tears. Not because I don't think that I am taking the right step but just because I am leaving my home. The place I have lived for over half of my life and the people who are my family. See I told you, as I write this tears stream down my face. The realization that I am leaving is starting to hit. Don't get me wrong I am so excited for this next chapter in my life but I wish I could take everyone with me.I look at the kids I have know since they where born/ little and my heart hurts will they even remember me when I leave. The love that I have for them is nothing I have ever felt before. I look at Kate Elizabeth and see this beautiful little girl who I love so very much, and I ask myself will she remember me. I look at Tobias James and think who is going to ask me to wrestle every time I see him. I was telling my friend the other day that the love I have for these kids in so strong and so passionate that I can't imagine how I will be able to love my own kids more.
Then I look at my friends some I have known since I was young and others I have only known for a few years however I think how will our relationships change? What am I leaving behind? I know that my relationships will change however my prayer is that they don't go away. My family here in Durango is thicker then blood. They are the people who I go to when I have a problem, they are the people I rejoice with and they are the people I cry with. THEY ARE MY FAMILY.
As the packing begins and June 16th quickly approaches I can't help but think about all that is here. I am so excited to meet the kids and families that I will be ministering to however right now I am mourning leaving Durango and this life that I have had here. I know that God has big plans for my future and I am excited to take the next step towards finding out what all he has in store! :) Please pray for this transition period that God will give me peace through out the whole thing.
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